FUCKING HELL... My leg is giving me problems again... I should have just amputated my left foot instead of going for the ligament operation... Now the skin problems are back! Argh... Fungal infections... Holes and cracks... What the fuck? Today, the small hole from my big toe became a big crack... I can see my flesh! It's so painful after I bathed... No one pity or care about me! AH!!!
I think normally girls wouldn't want their boyfriends to be overly possesive over them... Cos they need freedom too... Instead, my girlfriend seems to want me to be overly possesive on her... Since I need freedom, I don't want to restrain her too... But seems like she wants me to be by her side 24/7... Hmmm...
Just now, I didn't go find her because it was quite late and my leg hurts too... Journey to her house takes around 1 hour... She was unhappy, hence I tried to make her happy... I said I will go find you tomorrow...
Today I went to help with the prayers for lunar 7th month and stayed to handover... Hence by the time I reached woodlands interchange, it was already almost 7pm... I wanted to go home and bath since I smell of smoke, sticky all over with ash bits...
But she was very unhappy with me, whatever I said or done seems nothing at all... Den she called me, after a while she told me to say nice things to make her happy... I said what's the point when I already tried to make you happy but you don't accept me at all... Pausing for a while, she say now say it again... I said the same thing of going over to her house tml and now she thinks i am trying to make her happy... What is this? Must I wait til she wants me to make her happy? So I can't try to make her happy when she's sad or unhappy? I can't choose when I want to comfort her? Only when she has the mood to accept it? This is confusing! Sometimes, I really don't know what to do... She always want me to make decisions but when I made them, it will seem as if I never did cause in the end she would still be the one saying the final... Is she too picky? Am I too easy-going? Is it my fault? My fault that I will only made her sad and unhappy? AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
